The Cold Mistress

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She was strapping her heels back on, when he came and stood in front of her. "I never expected you to be this cold" he sneered.
She got up to face him, "of course I am cold, if I wasn't; I wouldn't love you, at least not when you don't" She sighed pulling herself together.
"When did I say that I don't love you?"
"But you don't"
He grabbed her arm pulling her closer; "You take my silence for granted."
"Because that's all I ever get from you", she protested.
"It's all I have to offer", he said finally letting go off her arm.
She turned around, her auburn hair was still undone, but she didn't care. She grabbed her purse and stomped away; only to return the next day.

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