As I lie down staring into the emptiness of the room I inhabit and the life I lead, wondering how things change, and people and most importantly how you change without even realizing it until you are too far ahead of who, you used to be. It is actually funny how you become a stranger to yourself more like to your former self, how you become so apathetic that nothing matters anymore. And then there are days or should I say people, who make you so sensitive, so fragile, so vulnerable that every pore in your body, every emotion your soul possesses and every wound of your heart comes back to life to remind you of what used to be and what never will be. I just hate such days,or should I say such people? Perhaps I loved them way too much, once.
It didn't last, like everything else. Maybe, life makes you less forgiving or maybe you make the choice to be. But every once in a while, everyone (no matter how big their Messiah complex is) get tired of being used and trampled on. They say it gets easier and there isn't a bigger lie than that. It gets tougher everyday, all the efforts made are flushed down the toilet, and even worse is all the love that gets taken for granted. Maybe life really turns how we expect it to be. So you're the one to blame for miserable you're, funny isn't it? The numbness has left me too, the hurt and pain are back but they are feeble this time around, yet it isn't better, it didn't get better like everyone said. I guess, it is just another unkept promise. You'd think I'd get used to those by now, hah.
Har ek banna phirta hai thakedaar mera, Jab se hata hai sar se saya tera. bohat rooti hun tujhey yaad karke, bari mushkil se sooti hun tujhey yaad karke, Agar jana hi tha tu mujhe saath le jaati, ju wadda kiya tha usko tu nibhati, dar lagta hai har ek baat se ab tu, toh nahi hai pass ab ju, bohat rooti hun tujhey yaad karke, bari mushkil se sooti hun tujhey yaad karke, kabhi lout kar ju asakey tu, Ek baar seenay se laga sake ju, shayad bhul jao'n sab ghum mein bhi, shayad muskarao'n phir mein bhi, bohat rooti hun tujhey yaad karke, bari mushkil se sooti hun tujhey yaad karke,
uff.. matlab ye end hai. kahan se copy mara hai? ;)
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