My Heart Yearns for a Love I Already Have
So many shows I don't watch, because they'd be too heavy, but I'd watch them with you if you came over on a Friday night, we could watch them together while eating a tub of ben and jerry's, as if your presence would somehow make them lighter. But you do, you make things lighter for me. I look at recipes and save them for next time we cook together, as if it will be in coming weeks. I plan holidays and our life in my head as if it is gonna happen for sure. I see people holding hands and stifle the yearning in my heart, reassuring myself I have plenty of them, just can't access them right now as if our love is in a safe deposit box. I take pictures of things only for you and some days I wish I didn't have to, that I could just show you but I can't so I take the pictures and try to fit my day into the texts and calls. The hugs and kisses, we hold onto them until we see each other again. I yearn for what we already have and sometimes it seems almost as distant ...